Back in LA

I've been back for a few days now and feel as though I jumped the gun on signing with a rep. So far, the energy level of the rep is not matching mine. I realize that's a hard reach for most, but come on, join me on the ride! I'm going back and forth as to going with the 1st rep that I met and loved me from the get go. So confusing!!!! UGH! I fight the feelings and I'm not listening to my higher power who is now beginning to scream. At first the voice was pretty low and calm, but now.... well.... it's getting a little loud! I'm off to NY on the 2nd for another shoot. The frequent flyer miles would be growing wild if I would just fly on one airline and not try to try out all of them. Funny thing is... I hate to fly. I feel as though I'm going to die every single time I board a plane. Not a fun thing to do 4 times in one month.

It's late. I'm tired. I'm restless.... I miss home... Oklahoma that is. I need to go back and get some "humble pie." I need to put my arms around my father and tell him I love him. I need to visit my mothers grave and tell her how much I miss her. It's been almost 5 years since she passed..... I'm sad.

More to come.