I am off to London today for a shoot. Super excited!

Someone called me an "adult orphan" the other day and it really struck me. Losing one parent is tough to handle, but losing both can be devastating. A devastation is not what my parents would have wanted. What they would want is for me to carry on their legacy. To see the sheer beauty in being of service and to cherish the little things in life.

I sit here missing both of them more than words could ever express. I feel so blessed that my father who had never been on a plane in 83 years mustered the courage to come to LA to be with me. I am convinced that he came out just to see for himself that my daughter and I were okay. Once he realized that he gently let go. I am thrilled that he is with my mother somewhere out there, but I have to admit I am missing the morning call asking if I am okay. I have a few of his voicemails still on my phone just so I can hear his voice.

One thing is for sure... I was definitey a Daddy's little girl.

If your parents are still with you.... hug them... cherish every last second.

A sweet reunion occurred last night at 7pm. Although it was tough to let him go I knew that she was waiting for him.

true love.

I am so happy my father is here with me, although it's really hard to witness him leaving. I'm savoring each and every moment. I am coming to realize how much he has given me in my life.

I really believe that blood doesn't bind two people.. only a lifetime and love do. This man adopted me as a child and it amazes me how much we resemble each other.

ANXIOUS

I am sitting at my computer tracking United Airlines flight 6443. I've been tracking it since it left Oklahoma City. It has the most precious cargo and I'm eagerly awaiting their arrival. My partner in work and life left LA yesterday to bring my father to be with us here in LA. My pops was put on Hospice care a few weeks back and I was told he has less than 6 months to live. We all felt that it was better that he come spend his time in our home with us. I have to be honest... this scares the living daylights out of me, but at the same time I know in my heart this will be a positive life changing event for everyone involved. He really is one of the funniest men I have ever met and has a heart of gold. His mind is completely there it's just that his 83 year old body is failing him. I am just forever grateful to Rock for giving me this gift... to spend the rest of my fathers life with him. My heart is completely full right now.

He has never been on a plane before, so this trip is going to be hard on him.... Rock called me and said that he was amazed at his courage. They will be here soon and I cannot wait!

I'm off to the airport to greet two of the greatest men I have ever met.

on a personal note:

My heart is healing and I feel a softer side of myself appearing. I sat next to my fathers bedside for the past 4 days. His body is failing him, but his mind is totally there. We laughed so much that my stomach started to hurt. Rock did tricks in his wheelchair as my pops looked on with a .. you are going to bust your ass kind of grin.

on work:

My crew and I are headed to Italy on Thursday to shoot the Gucci campaign. We are all super excited!!!